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Is The Fear of Losing My Mojo Real?
Writer’s block and other matters on my mind.
The last few days have been quite strange.
There’s a miasma of fear that’s clouding my mind and affecting everything I have set my mind to lately.
I am working on three articles but I can’t seem to find the skill, creativity or the words to complete them.
It isn’t like I haven’t been here before. But it feels somewhat different this time. I look at my numbers and I am filled with dread; I feel as though I have been found out and whatever it is that I am trying to say isn’t resonating with the readers here.
And then the question that’s been looming in my mental space comes up: am I losing my Mojo? can I produce anything noteworthy? can I defeat the nagging doubts in my head? can I defeat the demons, once and for all? These existential questions are determined not to leave me alone.
This feeling of inadequacy is compounded by my contemporaries in this space, who seem to be churning out material without any care in the world. They seem to have that special quality that’s eluded me forever.
Some may say that this is the price you pay for daring to compare yourself to a number of the marquee players here, while others may see this post as an entirely self-indulgent exercise of a Walter Mitty…